And what do you know I remembered my blog!
How are you my niche? It has been a while since the last time that I poured my heart out to you. Maybe I was just afraid that someone might be reading what I’m writing here. Someone who I don’t really want to know what I’m really feeling because I am not used to sharing my feelings with him or her. But I guess I don’t have to worry about that now right? You have come a long way my blog. You are a part of a community now. You don’t belong to only me anymore. This might be the last blog post that I’m going to share with you how I’m really feeling these days.
So many things has happened last year. I thought it was going to be the best year of my life. But it was not. Year 2009 started really great actually. I was having the best time of my life. I finally had the freedom that I have always dreamed of. I was having fun with Tim. I felt so loved by him, my family and my few close friends. I was traveling to places I have never been. I had (and still have) the best job and the best boss ever. I work on my own time. I had (and still have) the financial freedom that I have always wanted. Everything was going so well. But the year 2009 left a devastatingly huge black hole of emptiness in my life.
I have learned so many things last year. One of them is to value time. Especially the time that you have with your loved ones, your family. I don’t have to explain why right? Now I believe that life is definitely too short. To those who don’t know this yet, don’t wait for your very own wake up call.
I have always tried to live my life to the fullest without stepping on someone else’s life. And I will continue to do so. I just want to get something out of my system. I just want the whole world to know that even though I am laughing, smiling and acting like everything’s doing great right now, it’s because I have accepted the fact that my father is gone. I know and feel that he is in a better place right now watching over us. And I also know that if I will be a really good girl, I will be with him too when the time is right.
God I miss Papang.